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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

An album to die to.

American thanksgiving...

Who'd have known it was such a life threatening holiday, and that one may have more to be thankful for by its end? It started out purely innocent; gorging ourselves with delicious food, shopping, singing, dancing, checkers, and 21 for a night at Hooky Jacks. Then at the joyful weekends close we had mocked Tara's grandparents for driving home a day early for fear of a blizzard. Blizzard? Ha! The sun is shining! Its georgeous out! Then the snow hit, then the slush hit, then it all froze, and then we were far too scared to brave the road ahead.

We stopped in Miller at the tiniest Super 8 I've seen in my life, 20 rooms maybe? Not even a vending machine. We enjoyed a few hours of frivilous bed jumping, TV watching, and nibbling on leftover Qudoba, even discussing braving the sleet and ice to fetch Dairy Queen from across the highway. If only we had because shortly after the power went out. We were thrust into darkness, the wind pounding against paper thin windows and walls.

We huddled up in bed, falling into a worried sleep but soon, to our enthusiasm, we were woken up in the middle of the night by our lights turning on! Oh glorious electricity! I will never take you for granted again! A shame we didn't rush to turn the heater on and plug in Tara's cell phone as quickly as we rushed to turn off all the lights. When we woke early the next morning in hopes of getting an early start home, the bathroom light was no longer on how we left it. What was worse was the deafening howl of the wind and the blinding, never ending, white out the window. There was no going anywhere and the room, by 7am was already getting cold.

Heading down to the complimentary continental breakfast in hopes of nourishment, we were greeted by a room of hunters, stale english muffins, soggy ego waffles, and the lack of a working toaster or hot coffee. The orange juice was refreshing but all i really wanted was a banana. We carefully rationed my bag of salt water taffy and stomached cold soggy egos and jam for lunch. I sat by the window for awhile trying to read Douglas Coupland's, "Life After God" without opening the curtain all the way, and destroy what was left of our precious warmth. The cold didn't take long to take hold, though, and I was forced to curl up in bed, coat and all, and play 21 questions and I Spy. What a waste of a snow day!

The wind didn't pause for even a second all day. I'm ever so thankful that the power came through around 4 or 5. If it hadn't I might have been an icecube by the time we made it out of Miller. When the power came on, the kind hearted hotel owners offered to cook macaroni and cheese for us. The goodness of human kind has been proven once again. If you ever stumble upon Miller, South Dakota, stop at the Super 8 and meet the owners, each with a heart of gold. If it weren't for them me and Tara may have eaten the little baby down the hall, or one of the hunters dogs... or each other.

The next morning after struggling to scrape the thick layer of ice of the windshield, we made a safe ride home in only about double the time it should have taken. Tara is the most excellent driver I have ever had the pleasure of riding with. What's more then that, if I had been stuck in that tiny, cold room with anyone else, I would have been at my wits end before I had even fallen asleep. Tara's company was what kept me sane. She made me laugh even when I wanted to cry of boredom, and distracted my hunger by calling me homeless. There is nobody I would rather have been stuck in the middle of nowhere with.

A toast to the joy of friendship, being back in Aberdeen, and being alive!

In the sleet and ice before reaching Miller an album was playing on our CD player that I decided I would gladly have playing as we rolled into the ditch and were burried in snow forever. I'm sure you can guess it. Everyone loves it and if you don't then pull it out and take another listen. Wilco's "A Ghost is Born." Its tragic, empowering, and full of revelations, all in one. An album I would like to die to. Is that morbid?

Its snowing and now that I don't have to drive anymore, I am hoplessly glad. Tender snowflakes have been falling all day and left me smiling. Just 7 more days of class, then exam week, then HOME!

Push to the end,
Julha

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

the warm embrace of winter.

I can feel it in the wind. The snow is just around the corner and Christmas is coming in such a rush that I can almost hear the caroling already. Here I am caught between seasons, no more leaves to float from the trees, and only a brief disappearing snowfall to tide me over till it really comes down. The seasons are not all I am caught between now. In my blogging hiatus I have been absorbed by something new, warm, and exciting... and scary... and risky... and messy. I'm pressed between getting involved in something that doesn't involve me and avoiding getting myself into something that I want terribly to be a part of, to explore, and to enjoy. Confusing? I know! If it makes no sense its because it makes no sense.

For the first time I am experiencing the part of small town life that I never noticed before. Its that stereotypical, everyone knows everyone elses business. If there are no secrets in Aberdeen, then perhaps I shouldn't try to keep them, or rather avoid situations that require secrecy? Perhaps I am blowing everything into outrageous dramatics, completely out of proportion. My mind says wait on it. For SO many reasons!

stepping on toes
making people angry, people I will spend a couple more years or so with
getting caught up, off guard
not the right time (at all)
not the right age
one degree short
... someone else, in another city far away, who I miss, but I don't know why...

Yet I am here and the season begs for hot chocolate and tender words. If Christmas came now and swept me away, I might be all the happier. A fort, bathtub, and a ukelele might answer all my confusions, or perhaps double them in strength.

All I know is that I am relieved that the week ahead of me is far to busy to even think, let alone be concerned, draw conclusions, or make decisions. There are basketball games to play peppy music at, band clinics to be symphonic at, and best of all, a jazz band gig at the end of the week to learn to ballroom dance at. I can't wait to jitterbug, foxtrot, jive, or swing, whatever they decide to teach me. Then on monday... a big paying gig? I heard a rumour about 100 clams! I hope that comes through. I could buy christmas gifts!

I should also mention that this weekend I hid under a piano and spent a night with a gaggle of cool kids in a locked building climbing catwalks, exploring costume rooms, wearing sombreros, dancing (the break variety), and beatboxing. That possibly the kind of illegal activity that shouldn't be advertised on the internet, but it was innocent, and way to fucking cool to keep to myself.

"leave me to my dumb antics"
yours,
lame face

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

well, if the cookie said so...



one should not be so lonely with a fortune such as this. lovers please apply within.