Swing from the tree, lonely.

Its a strange strange life, this swinging pendulum I lead. In one day I go from utter dispair to inexplicable exuberance. Today I am so glad that joy showered from the bell of my horn, something I haven't felt for awhile. I used to constantly be put in the highest of spirits when I put the trumpet to my face but I've found frustration lately. Today it felt damn good... thank goodness!

Swish...
The funk I started my day in is probably better kept deep in my secret heart. It was lonely. I don't want to be lead on. I adored the meandering astro-night. Physics of finger to nose and feet to the sky. Behind it all I knew there was another gal but I was there and it felt nice to talk and feel not quite so alone. We both came to that realization with parting I'm sure, but I was less ready to admit it. The cool shoulder, not cold, but luke warm hurt me, just a little, because I was back to being alone again. I was the only one alone, though. I don't want to be silly anymore. I don't want to get wrapped up in such goofy emotions that I materialize out of imaginary moments, mistaken glances, and meaningless embraces. My halloween costume would have been silly enough on it's own.

As the pendulum swings back...
I know halloween isn't until tomorrow but I couldn't help but celebrate early with it being on a monday and all. I have outdone myself this year. I don't want to sound cocky but I take great pride in my costume history. This year, however, tops all previous masterpieces. Ladies and gentlemen I have two words.

Rubix Cube!

I am proud to be a nerd. So much that I will tell you that it is hand painted rubix cube with one rotating side. Dammmnn.

Tick...
Goodbye Cameron! Goodluck dear brother! Have a safe flight and an outrageous adventure! I forgot to say on the phone how much I will miss you at Christmas! I said goodbye but then shouted "Hold on!" Its too bad that you were so concerned with your cell phone bill because it made you quick to click. I know I don't see you or hear from you much as it is but I confess I got teary eyed at the thought of our meager christmas gathering, like a three legged dog. It won't be the same without a brother around. Love you, so.

Squeak...
Now, dig this sweet look. My dear friend Aidan Knight, that clever boy, designed me this hep new swag. Thank you. I feel cool now. Don't forget that BOREDOM BREEDS GLORY!
Thank you Aidan.

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